I was aiming for 10hrs of sleep. I think I ended with 11. I kind of woke up and couldnt get up and fell back. So I needed that I guess
Not a bad day to begin with kinda sour as time went on. My parents never got why we stopped going to Calvary Chapel. I hate their beliefs. I hate how they think everything and I mean EVERYTHING can be fixed with just prayer. No need for medicine or therapy if you are sick in the mind. Its all on you. Your faith in God. Your faith is why you arent better or you are. Sad I was raised in that church. I left it in 2008. I was there some in 2011. Left it for good in 2012 never looked back. But how they are making my dad and mom feel right now is really getting me mad. I know and believe God heals. But that is not the only thing. God doesnt heal everyone. We need drugs and therapy. We live in an unperfect world. And things are never going to be. So we might need therapy to get by. Sure dad had a good day then got a panic attack. He still has PTSD IT IS NEVER GOING AWAY! And for those men those elders at the church to make it seem like the reason dad is this way is all about faith is just wrong. UGH
My fitbit came! It came in a day. I was so happy about this one. I am wearing it now. I plan to wear it most days all the the time except while it charges and while I shower. Bring it on being more healthy
Took a walk which was nice. To get out of the house. It was nice to get away from all this.
I hate having to watch my SPN on my ipad or on demand. I hate how I was home all last night but unable to watch it or FEAR dad would say something. See me. Whatever. Judge me. I hate this. I wont stop watching cause of him. I just will not.
that is all for now. Back to work next 2 days. Sad work very little. Less all the time. good day all